.Graduation.

Was amazing!! :] I can now say that I am a college graduate!!!!! Its a huge accomplishment and for awhile I was defintely feeling it. But its going good! Saving up the money and going to move out here in a month or two. It feels good to be done! Ive excpected it :]

My awesome weekend actually started on Wednesday! I treated myself to three days off from work. It was awesome being able to spend the time with my family and friends. We started off with a girls day! Me, my mom, aunt Wendy and aunt Gena went to lunch and got pampered! it was amazing as always!

Then we had a bbq at the rental house. It was awesome food and fun times swimming in the pool. We played a little vball and I kicked some butt! hahaha. jk!!

And now blogger is acting dumb and it wont let me add more pictures... Ill finish this post another time! :]

Thoughts..

So with everything going on in my life right now you would assume that there are tonsss of things on my mind! You're right! :] Its stressing me out to no end too. Here's the list:

1. First I want to start off by thanking EVERYONE for helping make my graduation awesome! It was such a humbling experience to know that THAT many people would come to support me. My family and friends are AMAZING! I love them!! <3

2. I NEED TO FIND A SECOND JOB FOR THE SUMMER.

3. I NEED TO FIND A TEACHING JOB AS WELL
- With that I need to fix my resume and write a cover letter!

4. I need to take care of all the money, thank you cards, and organize all my stuff for teaching.

5. I wanna find an apartment and set a plan!

6. Now for the things on my mind.....

Missing things: Why is it I still find myself caring about certain people that I clearly can tell aren't my true friends. Its always been a competition for friendship.. Like who can stay friends with or rekindle old friendships the most. Who can host the best BBQs, have the most friends, most money, best pictures, funnest times, nicest house, get married.. it just all seems so fake and forced. I guess my problem is WHY DO I FREAKIN CARE?! I don't associate myself with those people anymore.. but I still find myself missing those friendships. Missing those people. Don't get me wrong, the people I have in my life are the best friends I can have, I just miss things and I can honestly say I don't know why I do. I chose this all.. I chose to not be friends with them anymore.. But when I go to someones wedding even after not being "in" the wedding.. and she cant even congratulate me when I graduate from college, it hurts. Whatever.. I'm moving on from that time in my life. All they are are memories.. great ones.

I'm still the same: When it comes to jealousy, not trusting, etc. This is something that I have tried so hard to change. I HAVE NO REASON right now to feel this way.. Its about everything, old friendships, material things, relationships... idk.

I'm a grown up: but I wanna stay a kid! For forever! lol. I want to be able to go to Spokane for the summer to visit my dad, Julie and Savy. I remember when I was young it got to a point when I wouldn't go as long.. or as much.. now I wish I could. I want to spend all the time in the world with my family. Having all my family here in AZ was my favorite... its one of the most important things to me now. My dad always said that back when I was 16, "One day you'll realize how important your family is. They are the only ones who will be by your side and love you." He was right.

I feel like I have so much more that's on my mind but I don't know what or how to express it. I know that even when feeling like this, like everything in my life is crazy, I am VERY lucky. I have a great family, friends, an amazing boyfriend, a college degree, plenty of money, food, water, air, bed, clothes, a job.. so I count my blessings. Because for what God gave me I am extremely thankful for.

Random Thoughts

So its one of those days when I feel like blogging but I don't know what to write about.. so Im going to fill you in on the random thoughts I have right now. :]

My weekend: It was a lot of fun!!! Like always! Friday, Mike and I met up with Tina and Cassie on Mill Ave. Mike had never been to Mill so we showed him around, a little, and then us oldies got bored and wanted to leave! Times have changed for sure. Unless its a special occasion, bars are overrated. Being 21 was tons of fun. I went to the bars with different friends every weekend, danced, drank, met new people, etc. Now all those memories are in the past.. Dont get me wrong I still enjoy going out for peoples birthdays or once in awhile. But the club/bar scene just seems so fake to me now! Id much rather be BBQin, floating the river, playing games or just socializing at peoples houses. I guess its apart of getting old! hahaha.

Saturday during the day Mike and I went to lunch at Dos Gringos, followed by apartment hunting, then finished our day with SUGAR BOWL! Ive wanted to always try their ice cream and it was DELISH!! And so cute inside!

Saturday night Heather and I had a girls night, Troy was included in on this as well! haha. We went to the park and played some BBall.. and then went on the swings! We talked about our moving out plans! I CANT WAIT!

And then.... PAINTED OUR NAILS RAINBOW COLORS! hahaha. Its fun being a girl!!! We are gonna show off our beautiful pigs on the river next saturday! Should be funny!!! :]

(aren't they purrttty!? haha)

Grad party: Is in two weeks!!!! Whoooop whooppp!! Its gonnna be a blast. We are getting everything ready for the party. There will be awesome food, an ice luge, swimming, family and friends! I can't wait!

Job: I really need to start looking. Here is where my procastination will get me at its best.. I already have a summer job but I would like to find something better.. Maybe a job I can keep throughout the year as well. But if not Im think I might want to Nanny. Ive always wanted to do that.. I heard theres a website with profiles of potential nannys.. I might do that.

Reading: I seriously can't wait till Im done with school and Ill have time to READ!! I still need to finish Breaking Dawn. Plus there is a list of books I want to read.. the time will come VERY SOON! :]

Plans for this week: are going to be a blast!! Tonight Im going to watch the Suns game with Mike.. Tuesday is Heathers Bday.. Wednesday Heathers friends come in town and its Cinco De Mayo.. Thursday we want to take the girls out to Mill.. Friday is BBQin time.. and Saturday is the RIVER!!

Mike: Well he's always on my mind lol. I think I have met the greatest guy in the world, for me :] I never believed there would be a guy that thought it was IMPORTANT to just make me smile.

Well now I just remembered I have something to do for school so its time to go!! Have a good day! :]